January 13, 2016
It’s only Wednesday, yet I feel that I’m on some kind of victory lap right now. You know, because I’m on track to successfully blog five days this week, for the second week in a row. This, my Internet Friends, is what I call winning. Blogging has always been a vital part of my business and for so long, I let myself off the hook by not staying dedicated to it- which is sad. The writer in me, obviously loves writing and creating and the girl behind the camera, she’s fueled by passion and inspiration. My blog used to be a testament to all of that. And I’ve miss it.
So, what happened? Well, in all honesty, I veered off track and lost my way. It took a little self-reflection and cold-hard honesty to realize where I had gone wrong. The past three years have been quite a roller coaster ride for my business and because I’m weaved into every aspect of my company, it’s affected me. While the highs were amazing and beautiful, it’s the depth of the lows that really took a toll on me. I have to admit, I learned more- about myself, about others and about life- through my struggles. And it changed me. It allowed me to grow, forced me to adapt and challenged me to overcome more than I believed I ever could. I learned that holding on isn’t always the best option, sometimes letting go is the right thing to do.
Letting go doesn’t mean giving up and it doesn’t mean that you’ve failed. Sometimes you have to let go because the weight of the load you are carrying is simply too much and if you continue to hold on, it will drag you down. Even though it’s one of the hardest things for me to do, I knew that it was a vital step in order to move forward. Holding on had made me feel bitter and resentful, uninspired and ready to throw in the towel. It was a scary place to be because that’s not the person I am. I missed the days of feeling inspired, feeling optimistic and knowing that anything was possible. The days when I created beauty that was driven by passion and inspiration- not resentment or validation.
I know I’m not alone in this. I know some of you out there reading this right now have lost your way, too. Your motivations have changed or you’re holding onto to something that will bury you. Consider this a wake-up call, a beacon of light, a plea. Get back to the core motivations that inspired you to chase your dreams and push through the road-blocks that are standing in your way. Don’t be afraid to fail, be afraid not to try. And give yourself the grace and freedom to spread those wings.